You speak of things you don't understand.
You'd probably be better off believing that I am speaking very plainly about what the church actually teaches rather than try to fit what I'm saying into your preconceived notions and understandings.
You are, after all, not really that familiar with Orthodoxy, only the unenlightened perversions of the faith that managed to proliferate in the west.
And I really hate to refer to western Christianity in such a derogatory manner, but it is the truth and it is very frustrating trying to teach real Christianity to people who think they already get it when they really don't.
Something you really don't get is that we have always taught this understanding of God, and your only argument against it is to go nuh uh and contradict what the church has been teaching for thousands of years.
So if you could look at it from my perspective for a moment, you should realize that contradicting me is an exercise in futility because I know what I believe, you don't, and there is not much you can do while disputing on this that would convince me that you aren't simply uneducated.
To you, it is an arbitrary thing. To me it is not.