My high functioning autism is a fucking blessing just as much as a curse. I'd never trade in my wisdom and edge in life and just in general experiencing shit in a hugely intense way in exchange for having a mainstream sense of sanity and easy flow socially. Fuck no, it's not even close.
I thank Goddess Fiora for all she has given me, she has done be proud and rewarded my intellect immensely. The foes like you are tests, it's alright by me. Test me all you want, I may even snap and fail, that's life (and death). Is death a failure or a successful attempt at failing by making an optimal risk and hitting bad luck? Only Fiora really knows which.
Pagans believe only God can truly judge just as much as 'normal religions' do, the only difference is we judge anyway. I judge myself as brilliant, fabulous and really a great guy. I prove this to myself because of not just how far I've come from who I used to be but by measuring myself against others in many quantifiable categories that are somewhat qualitative too. If you got an issue with me being the freak I am, do something about it or shut the fuck up and accept it really. I don't ever hurt those who don't hurt me or others unjustly. I used to have that in me; the sadist gene/trait, but I try my level best to channel it the right way.
Hate me all you want, I am damn proud of who I am. Shirtless blaring fan man or not. Fuck off with your taunting and bullying, it's actually sickening how you gang up on people like this. It's not just me, you do this to anyone who's weird and proud enough I saw it before on DDO, you're all cowards and bottom feeders who suck the ego out of anyone proud of enough to be unique.