It's not gentle, never is. The only reason you think this is gentle is because your baseline from other places I've seen you post than DART, is so severely horrific and deeply cutting to the ego that you think this is gentle.
This isn't gentle, it's more polite and veiled. You are consistently, with every single interaction you have with and around me fake, out to tear me to pieces, make me feel like a pathetic waste of space who is a piece of shit loser whether I stay on the site or not as either I'm a failure who can't quit or a coward who can't remain. It doesn't matter what I do, what image I choose, what way I talk, what way I walk. You can and will tear at it and get others to pile on me too.
The problem that I had in the past was that I feared that. I feared you, I hated you and I couldn't get over the fact that you were allowed to do this to me and that others joined in. It wasn't until I quit that I not only saw (based on others' reactions) but also gained perspective by truly not participating in the website even mentally, an outlook that enabled me to realise that the very reason you 'win' against me is that I focus on the painful intent, instead of the cause of the intent itself.
You hurt me because you envy me. You loathe the fact that someone should ever feel so proud and good about themselves that they dare make an attention-grabbing post like this. In your ideal world, I presume everyone shuts the fuck up unless the sadistic bullies decide it's normal and bland enough to be said without any angle to mock it into silence.
The difference between the old me and the new me is I don't care anymore about what you're saying, I care why you're saying it and will use that against you instead of the 'what'. You arbitrarily decide what you can and can't mock, what is gentle ribbing vs sadistic triggering and gang-up-on-him-inciting taunting. You make up whatever you like as you go along with what's a good argument in debates to what's a fair and just reason to be brutal to someone verbally or probably even physically for all I know. Then, when it suits your agenda, you arbitrarily decide what's bad, evil, unjust, stupid etc. All the while, your justification for what you do involves consistent patterns of arbitrary lines:
I’m not mocking you, I’m mocking your behaviour.
Interesting. What is 'me' then? Your behaviour since my return (actually during my leave and throughout my stay on this website) has been to make me feel shit. I do not see a single post angled in any shape or form to not make me feel laughed at, looked down upon, retarded, weak, pathetic etc. I don't see any other motive for how and why you are saying what you say, consistently. You lace it at times with a 'but' or 'on the other hand' and give an extremely shallow deflection which again is like Leafy (so I don't know why I'm called the leafy) and then you think that makes the other stuff you said and did just fine.
Then if I defend it, it's my ego talking, oh god the delusional fucktard RM is at it again right? Defending himself, 'bullying anyone who treads on his ego' oh lord... No, honey, that's you.
If you expect not to be gently mocked for making a grandiose, over the top (erroneouslytyped as 'time') “quitting for ever” thread, only to quit 10 days later (after already having “quit” at least 3 previous times), then I don’t think you understand how the internet works.
I understand how the Internet works, that's why I recognise strategised cyberbullying when I see it.
Its like if you posted “STOP” in the forum, and acted surprised if someone replied “Hammer time”.
No, it's not. You made a ridiculous analogy. If you harass someone who begs you to stop, you are the bad guy whether it's the Internet or not.
