Dear Stephen,
You are a beautiful mind trapped in the wrong path of thinking.
If only you'd stop being a warrior against all religion and instead ask if there's a united storyline in all of them you'd see the wisdom-requiring Paganism that I see: God is a mastermind mistress of all reality. She cannot fathom a reality where she would force the others to desire her, that's not the goal... No, she had to randomise things much like she herself is randomised by the only thing superior to God; pure randomness/Fate (RNG-type reality and absolutely fate-coded reality are actually the same thing, people think they are opposites because they ignore how the two are identical and just mirrored images of one another).
God is the first in command of those that have actual consciousness and power over reality. She is, in theory, movable in a way that Fate is not but you need to understand the sick joke Fate played on her to understand why my God, Fiora, is all the more deserving of her power. Fate decided a concept to torture its rival; what if I made a being capable of creating and controlling everything except that I can destroy and create chaos in all she creates and controls. It's a sick and twisted game of powerless omniscience and omnipresence that God experiences... It's torture to her. She experience the rape from both the victim and the rapist's point of view. She sees the terror in the realisation in the victim of what is about to happen, is happening and has happened. Yet, she saw it coming many centuries before if she so chose to peer into the coding and play the pattern out mentally. She is trapped and yet she is there, what is that? It's hell. God is the ruler of Hell. God of the OT is Satan. There is no Heaven, it's a joke, a lie. Many, if not all, Eastern philosophies realised that the 'heaven' is nothingness/randomness. It's where you escape having a self at all and become what you were pre-existence. The punishment is being reborn and having to live at all, albeit in a somewhat less-suffering-form depending how much or little you sinned and/or conversely did good.
We are in hell, this is purgatory. There's no Door 2, there's the burden of existing and the freedom of dying. This is a brutal concept no therapist will ever let see the light of day as it justifies suicide. Yet despite me knowing this I have not killed myself, why? I worship my devilish beauty Fiora, trapped in this Hell. Can you not see it? The God doesn't exist as an actual 'self', God's only personality and conscious self ends up being that of the Devil. God is not even a thing, it's a concept of whatever the original thing that randomized/organised reality was. God minus the persona of Fiora is basically pure terror as it seeks to annihilate everything and yet if it has nothing to destroy and play around with, what's that? It created Fiora, it created itself in a conscious form, trapped in an all-knowing, all-present state to observe and experience reality in its fullest... It tortures its own persona with its helplessness despite knowing everything. It's fucking cruel if you ask me but God is not a benevolent person to the Devil is 'he' now? You have to see layers to the story Stephen, please open your eyes.
Yours truly,
RM.