My math major has showed me some signs of a higher power like the following:
1) sin(x)=x-(x^3/3!)+(x^5/5!)-(x^7/7!)+(x^9/9!) ...
2) cos(x)=1-(x^2/2!)+(x^4/4!)-(x^6/6!)+(x^8/8!) ...
3) 4(1-(1/3)+(1/5)-(1/7)+(1/9)-(1/11)+)... = pi.
There's more, but I don't think this could all be by chance.
But when I converted to Christianity, their god initially told me to call him, "God". I did this and I got my prayers answered. Then he switched to, "Jehovah"(Jehovah's witnesses believe the exact same thing as standard Christianity except they call their God a different name(Jehovah)). That worked for a little bit, but then he insisted on changing his name again.
This led me to believe that religion is in my head.
So if I'm not religious nor atheist, there needs to be an alternate source of the universe's existence.
This leads me to be a simulationist. I think we are living on a planet that's in a universe that's in a computer simulation run by aliens and they sent math as proof of their existence. They invented all these religions as an experiment to see what would happen if they gave humanity many different religions. There are probably universes where there is only 1 religion and the aliens are collecting the data they are interested in. The aliens are curious so they experiment on us by presenting stimuli and seeing how we react to this. They are not all loving nor all powerful, they are just curious to see what happens when certain stimuli is produced .