Nr 9: "Polytheist-Witch" i also wondered about hair in the ass and just talked with nr 5. And i understand now that yes it is possible for shit to hang in such hair, it's disgusting and there is really no use of hair such place. And it is like nails; animal nails grow like pest or plague for ever - something to do. Yes i also believed once that i exist in time. But i have learned from nr 5 - my conscience school teacher - that time is useful to do something with real purpose. Else i am - were since now i have mistakenly come into this vamp trap with dangers too, where "nothing to do" hurts and that is know as feeling bored. - in nowhere, nothing to do ever and no harm in that neither.
My plan with conscience is to get ready to discarnate and avoid dangers "upstairs" also while continuing following correct authority - my conscience you know - to first freedom - which means separating from this spiritual company i have, since we have illegally found together (it's a mess) and getting free is also because there are sociopaths among them - with a new identity and solitude - in a monastery school held by real authorities, which i must be ready to distinguish myself, and there also have conscious communication to structure my spiritual senses, their purpose to understand security thus against more harm (hurt) and thereby to be able to communicate thus with school master and together figure out a quarantine action base where when finished i can enter and thereby end possibility for more harm/hurt to myself cause i am not an automobile - you know - neither.
Nr 2: Conscience tells me that some want to know "how come we got knowledge of upstairs"? And it's easy "all you need is love .." - and that's bullshit.
As we earlier mentioned, have you secured talking together? Anonymity, seclusion yada yada ask your conscience "what's wrong"? Because it is conscience who intellectually explains and bring about understanding in internal affairs here in danger and handicapped brains.
I recall it took years. We had extreme hurt, dizziness, long headaches because "we didn't distill our water, no .. that's not the cause:" there are tons of
electromagnetic radiance; and the correct cure is about figuring out co-operation with real school authority through conscience, 'kay ... First after we within had been sick through ages, we started going through documentary movie to learn about pollution, war, disasters etc going on around:
https://topdocumentaryfilms.com/.
So i had struggle with health and internal warfare. And after something bad there were basic thoughts. And oddly another spirit within asked conscious about my own concern or thoughts, but we still didn't talked plainly together yet until years later. And it was nr 3 who has already gone "missing", noooo because i know now that nr 3 and nr 1 had bone pains and we managed to plan upstairs tactical stuff through years.
You can not just "co-operate" consciently because real conscience is some one. When young i threw out the fucking school grades, because that's right and i did it. I saw bodies old every where, i had already felt torture through childhood years, i wanted free. But then i was enforced reading through library stuff, there was nothing technical about stop, out, end it now. For example now i have talked with a school teacher and agreed: "This world was original school property, so it must have been invaded and wrecked. .. Okay since i came here illegally then that must mean that upstairs things work illegally too and are invaded where incarnations take place .., and therefore when i discarnate it must be among other illegal immigrants wandering about like here: stray dogs.. yeah what if some one was attached a lion animal and walk about .." So we talk together and place certain facts to get a picture of how to make it. And conscience also use movies or games - certain clips - as examples.
But before all this listen up: I found religion "Towards Light". And therein we - nr 1, 3 and probably also 4 - decided to follow conscience. And i never got into any relationship actually. There were only 3 attempts - one boy and two girls -. The fucking faggot was enforced. The first woman was in illness, a rash decision some suckers within tried to screw with a typical street whore. And the second girl was once i poor slept on streets in Barcelona, and this university girl - who had seen my body there at library - invited and i noticed internally in thoughts a demand "don't ask (us conscient) else we will never come to fuck". So these "others" enforced a fuck with who ever and it was ridicules: First some within touched her nipples and "okay what?". And then they measured with fingers how many could fit in that asshole of hers. And after that she found a condom to put on my extra leg. The fucking spirits in company were use to masturbate but with a tight condom on, the dick could not roll, so there wear only poor sensation in porn hurt, harm what ever. And next thing noticeable was that the girl had made the floor wet with a pool of something yummi. And it was in a house where crooks lived. They were poor and had invaded an empty ruin so they were no facilities like toilet. And much later where all we twelve spirits within or what ever began "to talk", only nr 1 and nr 3 were willing to admit mistake .., the others said
nothing to see here ..And nr 12 also admitted that this "animal" was committed to god because late at the time were americans threatened with humiliating europeans concerning us involvement in wwii and we did that twin tower thing ca-booom, we talked on a forum and nr 12 yelled in writing "and i am god and for (our name) there is only me hilarious." And that fruitcake went on, but we managed to criticize the war mongers.
Nr 3 had fatal problems seeing and so did nr 7. But i know that nr 1 participated in our first artwork. It took 3 years to do for conscience. So listen up about relationship with conscience: We read in this religion "Towards light" that scientific spirits don't make it, but that artistic do. Bull .., any how we wanted to reach this "multi cultural personality" it spoke of. So we began though our animal always only painted stupid clumsy stuff and it was a stress to paint. But we used one year to completely finish 5 poems for example
Olympus beloved reason
the clean truth and altruism
always you are the greatest
and irresistible fist
And then we used almost exactly another year to colour it - some words and with background pictures.
And then we used half a year to do a painting - first think about what and then make it. And then conscience waited almost a half year but before the end, told us the rest and then we finished it within one-two weeks. But WHY did conscience simply wait so long .. (i want out now ..)? Because so we could understand that ideas or inspiration are not hanging on trees, that there are SOME ONE who makes them and gives them.
(So you see: artist here there every where bragging so are betrayers of their project manager upstairs.)
The painting was special, because it was intelligent. We had studied about egyptian and indian cultures, their religious blah and also greek philosophy, and conscience took the egyptian
The Sphinx (that's about question) and the indian or chinese
Buddha (that's about answer). And then there is you -
a pilgrim - on road from question to answer in christianity. (Nr 5: And above that there is zeus in skies, greek mythology, which was the last piece missing or was it .. in that painting. And below jesus wanderer there were death, spiritual hurt when the wanderer mistake and that is mythology only.)
And i was amazed by the simple coherence between these "religions" i had studied within 10 years. I did not just grasp "there IS some one upstairs". And i simply could not understand why the fuck this animal then later began to play computer games. I thought that is psychopathy and with the artwork, i had finally found it - i am going out of this madness. But nr 5 explained ages later that the computer games also had clues to figure out co-operation with me (nr 5: yeah.)
By the way with art i also tried to play something. And it was honky tonk all except one. Because i just tried after "feeling" but i felt my fingers were pushed sideways - like out of control -. And when it was done i thought "forget it" but it frankly sounded like some classical music sort of "
Fur Elise". And now much later i think it is not something to do, because sound is violence so conscience must have had a reason to play just that. And there became not anything more of it.
About this artwork we had idea from this religion "Toward Light" that love thy neighbor, so we explained our production to known family and others we got together with. Oddly they just vanished after they recognized it as true artwork. And our friends within became impatient and forced ideas of publishing it for money or popularity, but we rejected it. And later - where we were already threatened by ideas such as being possessed or followed by evil intending voices only - the animal violently showed anger and threatened with destroying computer toys. And it was thrown out. Nr 5 later explained that artwork was actually also to their rescue, it had landscape about egyptian underworld .. ups.
Yes, polytheist-witch about poly-nonsense, there are Sire, King, Lord, God and Father and they (nr 5: tribute king arthur -> security or safety. I am merlin because i know stuff and i also sit by the round table with you conscient pupils, but king arthur is no one. King arthur is ruler because in our liberal communication security is king).