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@Double_R
It comes from myself. The need to be worshipped is demonstrative of ego and narcissism. Why would anyone find that worthy of worshipping?
But the God of the Bible is neither narcissistic nor up himself. He is holy and good.
So given the factor that worship is inescapable - it is always going to be a matter of woshiping someone.
I suspect that you are full of yourself - after all, anyone who thinks that they can decide who God is - from themselves is arrogant and full of it.
And yet I reckon you worship yourself. In fact this goes without saying - you are the master of your own fate. The captain of your soul. You do what you want to do. You think your views are supreme.
So really you are also a bit inconsistent and don't actually practice what you preach. I suspect arbitrary is a good word to describe you,