Regarding the work stuff, don’t you think you’re going overboard? No different than a serial killer for working at Wendy’s?
If I am responsible for a lot of deaths, I don't know that it is any different ethically.
The only difference might be that serial killers don't exhibit guilt for all the death they cause, and I regret the death I cause.
My problem is ai can't really find a profession available to me immediately that doesn't involve me helping to kill large portions of the population.
I thought about finding a healthy vegan restaurant to work for, but I need to make decent money to support my family and would have to start at the bottom in one of those places.
Whether you cause death directly or indirectly, doesn't make a difference ethically?
This is the old river and shoe parable. Say you are walking by a river and see a kid drowning, but you just bought a new pair of shoes. Jumping in the river to save the kid will ruin the shoes..
You didn't cause the kid to drown, but are you a murderer if you just ignore it to save your shoes?
Most people would agree that it is a pretty shitty thing to do. However buying a pair of shoes instead of sacrificing the money it costs for one, to save a sick starving child through donations has the same effects as ignoring the drowning victim, so why would it be ethically superior to allow the starving kid to die, so you have a nice pair of sneakers as opposed to the drowning kid?
You see, either way you are a murdering piece of shit.
As far as the polling to cheat thing. I really have never heard of a democratic upset. Plus I just applied " cui bono" to the situation to see why it would happen.
Do o remember the scene at the end of Schindler's list, where Schindler was throwing his pieces of jewelry and fancy clothing to the ground in regret of the lives he failed to save in order to live a bit more comfortably.
Well, schindler was right. He was guilty for every Jewish death he thought he was guilty of, just as we are all guilty for the death we fail to prevent, even if we are detached from it.
I would never promote a vegan lifestyle, but we could honestly use meat very sparingly and save tons of animals lives. How many have been tortured so that you can live comfortably with a full belly?
How many children enslaved because you haven't checked the source of your coffee, or clothing?
I think it's okay to judge myself harshly for all the bad things that have happened due to my neglect or active involvement.
If you have any obese relatives, suffering with the health complications associated with obesity, I'm truly sorry. I hope they learn the value of eating high quality food and can erase the damage I have caused.