To You In Heaven (poem)

I stand trapped in a room of dread and gloom

It's almost as if the world is doomed

The colors are less vibrant the sky is dense

When I try to look in front, all I see is a fence

Wishing for something different from a reality of sorrow

My positivity wears out, for which I need to borrow

I stand trapped in an array of dismay

Pondering the things that happened that day

Can I look up to the sky and say you are better?

Or is reality and religion all fictitious banter

Does Heaven exist and did you make it there?

Was the price you payed worth it's share?

Anger infuses, selfish in act for the suffering it's caused

Reflecting for hours, my time is paused

I stand trapped far away from reality

It feels that I am stuck here for eternity

Lost in a world so big with problem endless
Is this world as great as it says?

The night is young and this is how I think

I try to look up but my heart just sinks

What I would give to see you walk the aisle

To see you radiate your energy, and bring out a smile

The days move forward and while I still haven't felt the same

I still think about the good memories we had at the games

The time shared holds a place in my heart

Even if you are not around and we are far apart

I'll cherish the memories we always made

The love I have for you will never fade

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The intent of this poem was to show to express the emotions I felt at the time of my friends suicide back in January. The first 3 paragraphs were written days after, while the final line was the reflection 6 months later and my thoughts ever since.