..."I need the drugs this guy is on"..
I never got mothers milk, so they may explain some of my cold heartedness.
As child built model cars so glue was unintentionally inhaled.
At 12 would sip parents whiskey to get quarter of 50 cents from older brother to impress his girl friends
At 15 got drunk on beer, wine, champagine and barfed on way home
walks
At 15 smoked not real good grass, but could tell no effects, except maybe the snow seem to have red colored tinge to it, perhaps from sunlight
At 16 dropped hit of blue pentagon acid, --took 2 hours before I go off--- and 1st encounter with good grass and had wonderful trip in room with blue light, piano and people sitting or laying around listening to Beatles music. First night away from home without parents consent.
17 with three friends in my car and two of us each got a 6-way hit of Window Pane. A pinhead size crystaline between two pieces of scotch tape. Had drug induced pychosis for next 8 hours. It was my first bad trip even tho I was high until the depressing come down. Some say it was cause speed cut in with the acid. Lucky my best friends, for the most part, kept me from hurting myself or unintentionally causing others to get hurt.
.......was in blame that I had done a bad thing cause my consciousness behavior had gotten out of hand, so I got a kithchen knife in the early morning, went for a walk and thought of killing myself. Then I thought about my best parents, who were alcoholics and my friends parents who were alcoholics and how my buddys and myself were alive because we kept their father from falling asleep and crashing car, on several occasions on the nights I ride home with them and sleep over.
The another school buddy and I went to park and these guys asked if we wanted to try some Angel Dust. Ok, were young and dumb, so he takes a match out of a match book, turns it upside down, and feathers the end of it, then sticks it into the white powder and has us stick it in our noses and inhale. I think he then gave us ride over to the one friends house, and for about 40 minutes he and I had the highest euphoric experience Ive ever had in my life since that time. And the come down was God awful worse than the come down offf the 6-way Window Pane or anything in my life,
--- ...later years I found out Angel Dust was PCP and who knows what it may or may not have been cut with----except for 30 years later, I dropped a heavy board with a rusty 16 penny nail stickin gout of it, right into the top of my foot into the bone. I laid on bed writhering in pain trying all kinds of positions on the bed ----just like when I did the PCP/Angel Dust, to get my consciousness to find a way out of the awfullness.
Finally a friend brought over to me my first ever hydrocodone pill. After half hour and out of pained I hugged her and told her I loved her. No, I was already married so we didtn marry :--)
So go over that and in my last month of high school as junior I did Orange Sunshine and then Purple Micro-dot and went to morning classes at school. Gym class was cetrainly fun out in the sun playing soccer. But in English class I just sat there looking out window at the trees full tree limbs of leafs and how they seemed to be breathing and when teacher came over to ask my where my papers were, she is looking down at me in my chair, and Im thinking as she is looking at me, she probably sees my pupils are extremmely dilated. So som how I get out the words 'I left my papers at home' and she just shakes her head back-n-forth and walks away, probably knowing there is something not right with this young man.
So I stop doing chemicals { acid } for two years, but when I came back at age 19 my friends said the had some strawberry mesc. So dropped it and had a good trip. But I told them it felt like acid and the said, it is acid, and I'm like, I thought you guys told me it was mesc-aline. No man, we thought you knew.
So I did some more acid Purple barrel, White Lightenting and then one of those good buddies is seeling 4-way hits of Window Pane, and go into use bathroom and he has spilled his bottle of 200 hundred hits into the bathroonm sink, and is using his finger tips to try stick to them an dput them back into the bottle.
....so I attempt to help him, and I have one of the hits on my finger tip, and I say oh, why not, and put it on my tongue. Bad idea! So this hit took half hour and I was off, so not quite as bad as teh 6-way hit, but once again, drug induced pychosis for about 8 hours. This is now 2nd time my two best friends have had to babysit me.
So then went on to do Peyote a few times and that always put my state of conciousness into the best placed, and not only that, but that feeling of consciousness, would linger with me for 2 or three days. Peyote is my favorite above all the others, but grass helps with all of them.
So, never did acid again for 30 years, the tried blotter acid on paper cause I had never tried it. Very mild could hardly tell anything.
Now I do two mikes hard lemonade every night, and moderate my pain pills with my moderation of sleeping pills and various herbal pills for this or that.
Overall, I'm in good shape, for the shape I'm in. Tho my bad cholestrol is way to high. So I do drugs for that as well.
Then there is caffine and rare occasional eating of some THC product.