I will like this to be the theme tune for this (more dedicated to my haters than lover but both should appreciate it), but you are free to not listen: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVzWVinJ5wQ
I have had a lot happen to me emotionally and even mentally since I began debating online to now. I've had rivalries that were brutal, some that were passive-aggressive and some that were based on misunderstanding and later have had me and the other be reconciled (SupaDudz is testament to that). I always strived to be the kind of asshole who everyone could find something to admire in and I will always aim to be that for the rest of my life. I am not the hero of anyone's story, I am the villain who is admirable in some shape or form to everyone and I embrace it.
If you have something to say or think about the move I pulled on Ramshutu, then go ahead and say or think it. I am what I am, he's said horrific things to me on and off site and other users that I'm not allowed to mention due to Restraining Orders, piled on me with him. I always wondered how the hell no one stuck up for me or why he was so universally liked over me and this finally proves what I always suspected... They don't stick up for me because they know I'm strong enough to stick up for myself. I love my fans, I hate my haters and I am thoroughly happy to be awarded this, I really thought I'd be stomped by some users, one of which is bsh1, but it seems there's a quiet voice of resistance and admiration in the userbase for me that I didn't know was there (genuinely).
I am seriously happy as fuck about this, I am grateful and most of all because I never once let the mods fully tame me (only partially) and will always be a wild motherfucker in part and am so glad that gets some to dig me, because if it's ugly to everyone that's kind of too much hate to handle in my opinion. I will stay raw and passionate, this has been brilliant feedback to me.