I dont feel responsible for my actions

I dont think that I have free will.

But even if I did have it, then I still wouldnt feel responsible for my actions.

There is no proof that my actions were done by me.

I was spanked as a child.

There is no proof that spanking didnt change my brain, thus my brain is the result of the action of the other, not my own action.

So likewise, I am not really responsible for what I do.

Also, we cant rule out the possibility that I am possessed by Satan.

Its probably why I pray to Satan so much.

P1) If a deity D is omniscient, D knows all true propositions, including those about D's own future choices.

P2) If D knows a proposition about its future choice is true, D cannot choose otherwise (due to the immutability of truth and the law of non-contradiction).

P3) Free will requires the ability to choose otherwise.

P4) D is omniscient.

C1) Therefore, D knows all true propositions about its own future choices (from P1 and P4).

C2) Therefore, D cannot choose otherwise for any of its future choices (from P2 and C1).

C3) Therefore, D does not have free will (from P3 and C2).

Your choice has a cause. You cannot choose a cause. Thus, you cannot control your choice.

Or

Your choice doesnt have a cause, so again you have no control over your choice.

Surprisingly, I kind of agree with you. I’m under informed on the subject, but I don’t really believe in free will. Everything we see is just particles interacting with each other in reactive ways. I think it’s a fallacy to assume that some specific pattern of these particles can automatically just create free will. The argument against it is basically just “magic” if I’m very oversimplifying, and I don’t really buy it.

Free will was invented to put blame on individuals for their actions, thus to feel morally superior to those individuals.

However, free will cannot logically exist, and anyone who thinks that free will exists just lacks basic imagination ability to ask himself: "What creates our choices?"

right, and even if someone tries to say "god" or "spirit" or "demons"

well, obviously if those spirits have any "core nature" and "accumulate data (experience)" and do not act randomly

then they can't have "free-will" either

the entire concept is logically-incoherent

The rapidity of the processing  system is such that action and reaction are virtually simultaneous.

Subconscious output is unknown, though conscious output is typically decided upon.

The question is, are conscious decisions always stimulated by subconscious effects.

Why do we make decisions?

Or more appropriately...Why do we decide to decide?

lack of confidence

when adequately trained

we act "without thinking"

We act without thinking.

Seemingly

Thinking...

Consciously processing data.

When adequately trained,

Seemingly becomes a simultaneous process.

Though I'm not sure that it's possible to do something before the relevant data has been processed.