this is probably something I see myself doing in a few decades.
Sometimes, I just wanna die because life's hard and dying with coolness points is cool.
Life is hard, but dying tends to be harder.
Have you considered moving to live in a forest instead of dying in a few decades?
The main reason why modern life is hard is because almost everyone is living close to poverty, and many things can happen which can send you into poverty.
Working 8 hours a day 5 days a week is a privilege.
Many people have to work 10 to 12 hours a day, often even 6, even 7 days a week.
Also, there is the after work effect.
When you come back from work you feel so tired that you cant really enjoy anything properly.
And you are so tired that you have to rest for entire day and then free time passes really fast, it feels like you dont even have free time.
The only way to have actual free time is to reduce sleeping hours, which is horrible as you lose ability to even feel good, and the time at work seems even longer.
There is alcohol which can help to negate all the suffering, but coming drunk to work can have its own bad outcomes.
In conclusion, the day when society stopped being hunter gatherer is the day when we condemned ourselves to live like shit just so that few rich people can have everything they wish for.
It was a trade which benefited only one side.